还不想睡...

刚和亚庇的阿成吃完面,他是佳礼网的跑友.

感谢他热情的招待,第3次来沙巴了还是觉得这里很适合退休生活;P

这里的庸懒在吉隆坡是找没有的,可能是心情的转换吧...

住在他朋友经营的Borneo gaya lodge, 虽然是宿舍但是设备齐全,冷气,上网...

地点蛮好的,重要是价钱便宜

还不想睡,由其这里有免费上网... 中毒太深了...

Borneo coming

so near borneo marathon is coming, felt not comfort cos not well prepared...

is hard to get up to running in the early morning...

my passion missing, my body tired, my mind messy...

thinking is a way, doing that's another way...

deeply understand now what said 'the worst enemy is myself'...

everyday every minute every sec is making decision, the choice always be there...

I want it, I plan it, I done it. NO others way!

so lazy to run

this week need to run 100km, so far done 10km...

just do it.

less time for me to training, aim for sub 4 hours again...

too hard for me?

never try never know, many things in life waiting for me to explore...

how best i can done? how far i can run?

随意

不知觉

深夜的幽

席卷每一个快乐的念头

才惊觉

昨日的我

遗下一段段绚丽的缺口

往返的人群

停驻的孤影

依稀忆起那巧媚的注目

重温那执手的炙热

等待复杂简单化

思念却复杂了

纠缠会至止

回忆还深植

忘不了你的好

记不牢你的坏

不过 至少 一点 我知道

你安好

Crazy run I done before

When I feel fail, I got no way to take out my bad feeling especially something can not tell everyone like relationship...

I start my running training last year end for great eastern pacesetters 30km race, I found that running let me vent my energy and emotion to peace...

I remember once I try to run up to genting highlands from taman melawati, that day I feel really bad about my self... I thing I can't do anything seek like no confident at all, but I told my self at least I can run...

Without any preparation, no hp, no money... just alone.

At the start I just want to run around the house area, but when I almost finish to turn back...

I feel something I will do is the idea to run up to the genting highlands... really crazy thinking...

Y Not?

Let give a try...

I remember that when I run beside the highway, all dust stick on my face and glass...

I sweat and my vest is wet, my heart is pain...

At the end but not the genting highlands, my leg cramps... my mind tired...

I stop at a roadside peddler and request for a warm water without paying...

Thanks for the nice guy, the peddler place is near genting sepah...

After I rest enough that I take a taxi back to my house...

Really crazy experience for me...

Nearly 22km...

The Price I Won't Pay

At this night, because of something happen...

I feel no good...

I blame myself, is used to be like this?

Is this call luck? bad one... double up...

No matter how, something I can't handle and control I will get away from it...

It is escape, I know... but I just can be like this... alone...

At least I won't get hurt, is just a way to protect myself...

I can't be down, the price to me is too big...

Just stay focus, job is a positive return to me compare to my effort...

Again, realism... pity guy...

the book: Inpemenant no contact

this is the book i saw in my office than i borrow from manager, cos this is the 1 chinese book i saw...hehe~

i impress about the draw inside the book, but incident i find a letter inside the last page of that.

the letter is said like this:

Mxxxx:

so long time not meet u, i like this book n i feel i seem like the boy in the story.

this book i bought few year ago, although this is not english book but the most story told by drawing...

i think the story can touch everyone heart by the draw.

n i like the last page of the book, may be u can check it out.(this make me curios to finish the book)

after all wish you find ur happiness, may be call u 1 day...

Chxxx.

the letter meaning is around that, cos the book i return to office ready.

the book story is told me the boy is so missing abt the girl, seem like the genaration is differance ready.

the girl is whole part of the boy's life after they met, but the girl get her director dream in movie.

may be becos of the way is differance so the end of their love is die in silent - like inpemenant no contact.

the boy press his feeling down from face, n waiting waiting waiting hoping the garl's return.

n within the period of waiting, he lost the way... lock himself in the room...

go to club for happy feel but after that he feel that is really 'break out' T_T

even when there meet also like a stranger, the boy feel hurt n didn't dare to meet a new girl...

n the last page of the book is said like 'i wish we can meet again'... mean that he still waiting for her.

i got deep feeling abt that cos i done this before, but of cos i not waiting anymore cos i know life got to going on...

but besides this i discovered that love like libra, a part give more n a part get more...

n the part get more even dun know how much the other give or done many for he/she at the background.

so that in my thinking, no worth i give more n get even nothing. (feel like stupid)

than at the time now, i just able to love myself only. love seem like no practica for me...haha~

14/04 无聊日

今天早起去跑步, 左脚裸有声音跑完过后就抽下抽下...难道受伤了吗?
希望休息多点就会好回, 如果我是刘翔脚受伤了压力肯定超大.

妈妈说想吃鸡饭粒, 心想好吃的也不会在雪隆这一带有...
在网上找找, 有一家在sunway mas, 原来之前我有去吃过的(记性不好)
结果和预知的差不多(马马虎虎), 但是至少不用到马六甲那么远.

这个世界就是那么奇妙, 看到一位美女的blog说她失恋了...(遇上坏男孩了)
在感情的世界里面, 好女孩不一定遇上好男孩的, 就算遇上了也不一定合得来
相反好男孩通常也只看上坏女孩, 因为比较有魅力吧...几时才会让我遇上她呢?

看过这期的New icon for him封面人物罗志祥小猪才觉得他真的多才多艺, 做艺人不难但是要长红像他那样只靠运气是不行的. 无论做任何事情, 真的必须尽全力...认真的男人最有型!

13/04 休息日

那天有空在the curve就去tough看看, 店员还蛮好谈的.
谈到我看中的一个限量版的腰包, 全雪隆区的店只剩下2个而已
扣了20%还要360, 买不买好呢? 真的是心大心小...

今年尾想再次去mataking岛度假, 希望可以在之前去拿个潜水course...
酱就可以拜访拜访mataking岛的海底世界, 在redang岛拿course应该不错...有没有更便宜的呢?
去mataking岛有预算的话顺便去sipadan岛, 世界级的潜水天堂吔.
sipadan岛是我的目标之一, 最好有朋友可以一起去玩的比较尽兴嘛.

近来精神不大够, 早点睡比较好...毕竟已经不是18/22了

12/04 多事日

今天我家的狗很气人,乱咬我的东西.
虽然它叫happy,有时也让人觉得很sad...

今早也去跑了马拉松10公里, 很开心和很多朋友一起参与.
以前跑完觉得很辛苦, 为什么要自己去买受罪...发誓再也不要有下一次了
结果是越跑越爽, 可能对于我来说...能完成一个全程的马拉松也是一种小小的成就

有个朋友说: 得空跑一跑, 身材不会跑~
当然, 最重要的还是健康...出了一身汗, 精神又爽朗.

对, 每次都全力以赴...
虽然辛苦, 回忆时就觉得不苦了...还很庆幸当时很努力过.
就是这份感觉, 在每次很想放弃时让我咬紧牙门拼下去.


倒霉吗?
下雨驾车, 那辆国产车为了前面有个大洞停车, 我在他后面免不了撞下去.
不知道要赔钱吗...还好是小事
一天内眼见3宗车祸1单是自己的...命中率真高...

只是觉得自己应该活的像太阳花...
花的精神, 努力绽放, 无怨无悔...就如对生命的态度.
太阳花面向阳光, 就看不见阴影...积极乐观, 永远怀着希望.

面向太阳

从今天开始,我会变得快乐

因为我做了一个小小的游戏,

却体会出了一个大大的道理

把脸面向太阳

所有的阴影都会被抛弃!



有上就有下

有东就有西

有白天就有黑夜

有阳光就有阴雨



在下的时候

我们具备了攀登的机遇

在东的时候

我们具有了西去的道理

黑夜中我们孕育了白天

阴雨中我们知道乌云上面是睛空万里



把阳光装在我们心里

睛天 阳光照着你

雨天 我们照着你

面向内心 阳光灿烂

从今天开始

我会变得快乐

每一天 都是阳光的日子